So, hi. like the title says, who knows. update? maybe. rant? most likely a short-ish one... cosplay? yup. im too excited not to. random crap? AS ALWAYS.
lets do this by what they are. XD (the rants at the end.... just so its easier to skip)
Update:
still no word on the computer problems... i might submit some art ive got on my sd card/usb stick using my moms laptop.... im just glad im drawing agian... dont ask ok.. but, the jist is: about the begining of october, someone was pissed at me and went in on a rant at me, and they said stuff about my art. the quotes that really hurt though were these: 'You just sit in a room all day and draw the same things over and over agian!' 'your art wont ever be good enough! its not even what people want to see!' those just killed me... urk.. swore i wouldnt draw, but damn i missed drawing... i never realized how much i need to draw untill now...
uhh... i also started writing stuff... im not that good though.. im trying to find something i like in the literature arts thats not story/book writing related... might upload some...
Cosplay!
yess... you saw the nepeta horns photo i posted, and im having my dad finnish the hat today.. the leo shirt got painted monday night... its a bit too jade, but its the closest i could find... the tails done, i have the gloves, pants, nails, make-up, feet (wearing cheepy streachy blue socks over my shoes...might find away to make them paw toes tonight..) and possibly fangs (to hide my braces) taken care of... im also making a matching cat styled candy bag for trick and treat. (XD its mainly for the 'props' im taking..) and my 'props' are the four quadrent symbols. imma take some and pass them out acting like a shipper as i do so. XD its just for fun really.... i need an excuse do do something crazy. XD
i promise, photos.... i promised another friend photos too...
Random Crap:
ok. if you didnt know, im a pokemon fan. my prefered types are Ghost, dark, psychic and some fire types. Well, one of my favorite pokemon is Hypno. (Baynette is my all time favorite though.) so, ive been singing 'Hypno's Lullaby' lately. anyways, i stopped by my adoptive third grandmothers house the other day, and i was upstairs with her looking for the white fabric for the nepeta hat, and i found with some other neacklaces she had, a wooden loop, about two inches tall, and a fourth inch thick. its a really light tan so in certian light, it looks like it glows. its also on a black string neacklace...(the cord goes through the ring's hole, then it loops over itself..so it kinda looks like its tied to the loop..) it looks ALOT like Hypno's pendant too...and gosh, i am having so much fun with it! ive freaked my penpal out, and some people at a chat i hang out at with it. and random ass people ive seen. XD
ok, rant time...i promise, ill try to make it short...(warning, i might cuss..)
Ok, so... i have a friend in 'real life' whos a year younger than me.... well, urg... she can just frustrate me to no end... but shes still my friend, but gosh she JUST pushed the wrong button this time...
I WILL TELL YOU RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW. I HAVE CUT IN THE PAST, AND I HAVE TRYED VARIOUS TIMES TO COMMIT SUICIDE. ok. dont question this, im fine now. im not trying that agian....and...i am me. i am NOT and emo or goth or any of that shit.. and it pisses me off when people call me that just because of how i look/how i seem to act. ok? the clothes dont make me, and i act the way i do at first because im afraid of betting hurt/hurting someone. ANYWAYS, this aside....
my friend, shes got 'issues'. ok, i AM sympathetic with her because her mom died on Christmas day 2011, and she currently lives with her grand parents. he dad is in and out of jail and rehab. and shes moved alot... ok, i get that, but she claims to have so many 'issues' and it really makes me mad... she has a warm place to sleep, plenty of food to eat and water to drink, a bed to herself, she shares a HUGE (its bigger than my bedroom) room with her sister, she has an ipod 4g, a dsi, a wii, she gets music and apps, shes got wifi there, her grandparents are nice, but she says her life sucks. and look, like i said, i understand with her mom, but her dad.. well hes not a good guy.. im not one to judge people, but...theres something off with him.. he has this vibe about him.. and he was basicly dead a year ago and suddenly hes here...and look, her complaning here and there about her life isnt what upset me.... i saw her yesterday, and she told me on tuseday 'i started cutting.' now i was thinking 'oh shit. this cant be good.' i mean, shes got a nice personality, and i KNOW lots of guys think shes cute. (because i have seen them fawning over her when we went to our county's fair this summer. XD ) and being some one whos done this, i knew how bad of scars it leaves.... well she showed me the marks, and THIS is what really PISSED ME OFF. THERE WERE NO ACTUAL CUTS. JUST FUCKING SCRAPES AND SHIT. none worse than a small cat scratch. i mean i was upset she was starting, but i was even more upset that she thinks her like is so terrible that she has to start 'cutting'. and shes posting some shit on Hatena about cutting too. (shes in the noob cattagory most all the time she posts flips/does hatena related shit..) and that really just struck a nerve... BUT SERIOUSLY PEOPLE. just because you have ONE bad day, you dont get one thing you wanted, something doesnt go as you wanted, dont cut or do suicide.
ok, im stopping here... bye.. imma go work on my cosplay..